My fingers have been itching to start this blog. Why? It’s funny… when people follow me on twitter my first thought is “why the hell are you following me? I don’t have anything interesting to twit about!” Yet, here I am wanting to start a blog. Look… I’m no expert – I just have a lot on my mind that I want to share, and I figure that maybe just maybe my perspective or the way I see things will help someone. Even if only one person. Then again, maybe all I’ll end up doing is entertain you! I’m good with that. I love making people laugh. I believe Charlie Chaplin was the one who said that “a day without laughter is a day wasted!” Agreed! And who knows… maybe I’ll actually have people start reading my blog and commenting and helping me in the process – giving me perspective on the things I still can’t seem to get a handle on. Or just words of wisdom and support.

Does it annoy you when someone says to you “I feel blessed”, “I feel thankful?!” Does it seem self righteous? I don’t think so. Life is moving so fast these days that for me personally it’s important not to forget how blessed I truly am. It’s not about the money or things (although having a career I enjoy and working with people I care about and who care about me – I truly am thankful for that; not only from an emotional and growth perspective, but also from the perspective that I can put a roof over my children’s heads, feed and cloth them, etc). So why am I feeling blessed? Because I have two beautiful and healthy children (who although drive me bananas at times) I love completely and who give me unconditional love (well, on the condition that I feed them non-stop with only the things that they love because hey, the kitchen is open 24-hours and apparently I’m a restaurant that can whip just about anything), I can’t breathe hugs (okay, sometimes I do need to beg for those) and wet kisses (and these too). I have these amazing supportive parents who love their grand kids probably more than they love me (just kidding… then again, maybe not ;)) and are always there to lend a hand, a  helpful and caring brother and a kind hearted SIL (she is not perfect nor do we agree on everything – but she is goodness, love and warmth and a great source of support and advise). And there is my BFF to whom I will send a text at 6:45 on a Wednesday morning saying that I’m so exhausted physically and emotionally with tears streaming down my face, and she’ll call me right away to calm me down and get me to breath.  Then there is my cousin with whom I reconnected not long ago. My beautiful and strong cousin who is able to provide me with some perspective and 100% no judgement. Even as I type this I realise that these amazing individuals (and there will be others worth mentioning) – these people each deserve a dedicated post. All in due time. Well, considering it’s now 12:31am and my little one is bound to wake me up at about 6:00 am, I think it’s time to shut this down and hit the sack!

Oh… did I mention that I’m a single mother?

p.s. am I supposed to edit this? Ah F*** It! I’m too tired!!